Monday, June 27, 2011

MeAndD'Neb


Again. After so much in pain. After i cant stand anymore. After i thought i'm gonna collapse last nite. After Abe force me to go to the hospital. Here i am, being nebulised. Shivering like a parkinson. Oh God! Have mercy on me.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Father'sDayWithoutBapa(II)

Another Father's Day without bapa.
sometimes the world seems so silent.
quiet.
but i know he's watching me up there.

and this is the first father's day for Abe without babe too.
yea... babe's growing up now.

to Abe, i love you till the end of my life.
thank you for being a great bapa.

Friday, June 10, 2011

SurVivingTheHarDeStPart


...should i say " i can what do what she can do, if not better then equally good as she did!"...

after all, its about time for me to move on,
having my own life,
living my life.

i've been too defensive all this while..
protecting my pride,
healing the shame,
trying to stand tall despite of my numbness.

and i'm over it now!

Sunday, June 5, 2011

ClouDySunDay


there's a moment
where i could feel the loneliness...

there's a moment
where i really wish that you were here...

here is the moment though,
when i'm all by myself...

praying that i'll be strong enough
...come what may
and i'll stand still with you!

*June is a sentimental month in my calendar:)