Tuesday, March 24, 2009

learning the HARD WAY

dear peeps
it's been awhile since my last post. actually i have so many things in my mind that i want to share here. only that i dont know how and where to start.
the beginning of new year doesnt seem to be a good start for me. i've been very busy with workloads. the tense is really burdening my thought.
besides, bapak's condition deteriorated day by day. he's been hospitalised twice last month. three days at RMC and five days at PCU QEH. we were told by the doctor that he was very sick. yes. by looking at his condition alone u can tell that he's suffered so much. he's been in pain continuosly. he can barely getting up by himself. let alone to walk. i had to hire a caretaker to look for him while i'm going to work.
we were advice to be prepared mentally and physically. looking after a patient will be a toturing moment. that's what Dr. Chitra told us.
well, i must admit here that i am very scared and not prepared myself with the worst situation. sometimes i cried in my prayer. but not infront of bapak.
to you my dear friends [if i have any in this virtual worl], please pray with me that bapak will have the strength to fight his illness...